. its so random its irrelevent!

2009-05-01T06:56:00.001-07:00

WOW. this blog still lives! :)

...

2009-01-18T08:00:00.000-08:00

let us go
you and i
take this road
the empty streets
where millions walked
before you and me

ask me no questions
for i know not
where we would be
today
tomorrow

the restless nights
and the midnight talks
the unbridled tears
when its time to part

i look back at all that has passed
and i look forward to what could be
except now
its sans the illusion
of eternity.

2009-01-17T10:33:00.000-08:00

im gonna be 20!

im old!

i noooo like yoooouu anymore!

2009-01-07T05:47:00.000-08:00

I found out a day ago that an alleged close friend of mine has disowned my blog from his blogroll.hmpf.
he chuckles "the others in my blogroll have atleast maintained their standards. your previous post ( referring to my apparently pathetic attempt to rhyme) was just plain weird."
banishment struck hard!
sensitive ol' me thought about it, contemplated my next step. various options seemed plausible including-
* crying incessantly
* blaming the world for this tragic mishap.
* drowning my deep sorrow in a shot glass of vodka.
* well, make that various shot glasses of vodka.
* listening to lots of christian rock. and brandi carlile- tragedy.
* trying to induce some guilt trips... "how could you DO this?? how???" ( THAT never works with that cold hearted scoundrel)

they say that good can come out of every situation. and this is my silver lining- i got a topic to blog about! ye-ahhh!

which brings to mind a George Carlin quote- "And remember - behind every silver lining, there’s a big dark cloud! "

this year i shall-

2009-01-07T05:40:00.000-08:00

* focus.
* talk less, listen more. :)
* write.
* study. ok ill try to.
* travel.
* be happy.
* not be conflicted.
* not break any of the above.

creepy movie that plays in my head.

2008-11-28T08:33:00.000-08:00

embers
glow in the dark,
faces
look up

standing still
recognizing the signs
reflecting on matters all

a slight pause
and a moment's hesitation
evoking pain, uneasiness

a need,
a growing desire
slowly building up
to completion

break free.

i feel-

2008-11-09T06:00:00.001-08:00

NAIICE :)

Bedeutsam

2008-10-29T10:12:00.000-07:00

i see a line
glazed in blue
stretching unto infinity

i see a horizon
sparkling gold
covering me

i see a raindrop
shining
reflecting the rainbow hues

i see myself in the midst of it all
for the first time
i see

2008-10-28T23:31:00.000-07:00

yuck.
my previous post is like a 7th grade essay.
again- yuck.

kerala!

2008-10-28T22:50:00.000-07:00

here i am.
staring at a blank screen. wondering what to post about.
my kerala trip comes to mind. except that there wasnt anything of consequence to narrate. oh hell, since when was this blog about consequence anyway?
that place was fun, where i had my harrowing experiences with leeches. those creatures are the grossest things ever. slimy. ewww. gives me goosebumps to even think about them. but leeches apart, kerala is quite beautiful.the mountains make you want to just stay put in a place and do absolutely nothing but keep looking at them. and then there are those quaint little mountain streams running all over the place. just heavenly. we stopped over at this dam which is supposed to be south India's biggest one. that title is justified. it was extremely lotr. the whole of the movie could have been shot there and the surrounding hills. we also went to some national park... err does giving shelter to a bunch of elephants and some monkeys qualify it as a national park?? anyway that turned out to be a letdown. a boatride to observe the animals who refused to show up had a very sedating effect.
the best part of the whole trip was the sea! the glorious, amazing sea!!!
ahhh. i wish i could've spent the whole trip there. it left me several shades darker and pruned like a raisin but it was totally worth it! one of the most exhilarating things in the world must be being surrounded by waves in the endless sea. they never stop . :)

too lazy to think up of a name for this post!

2008-10-05T05:55:00.000-07:00

for a good ha ha... pearls before swine.

i need to sue someone too!

2008-10-01T20:50:00.000-07:00

People are crazy and times are strange
I'm locked in tight, I'm out of range
I used to care, but things have changed.

sometimes all it takes is a small incident to change your perspective on everything around you.
and one small act can unravel a lot. the things i cared about as early as the start of this year are disappearing. fast. with others taking their place.

new beginnings are fun.

topmost item on my bucketlist

2008-10-01T20:35:00.000-07:00

go live in norway!

or somewhere else far far away. remote. eclectic. sleepy. seaside.
its funny how being cooped up in the same place for too long with the same old people makes me want to do a houdini.

this officially has been THE most confusing time of my life. i have no clue where im headed or what i want to do with myself. makes me reminisce about the good old days when the only decision of importance i had to make was what games to play n how to persuade mum to extend my curfew.
seems like i'm being dragged into adulthood kicking and screaming. :)

other items on my newly formed bucketlist-

* work for a social organization.
* take 6 month off for me exclusively.
* travel through the northeast frontiers.
* travel across europe with a friend.
* write a book
* soul search
* make a difference.

:XXX

2008-10-01T05:46:00.000-07:00

i want to shoot someone.

heh

2008-09-19T06:12:00.000-07:00

"we quarreled. she brought up the subject of children again. i convinced her that they would be too young! " - woody allen

neurotic, pessimistic, highly entertaining and totally morose.
complete with brilliantly sarcastic one liners.i'm floored by his genius.

:((

2008-09-18T05:19:00.000-07:00

to the one who tells me my nose looks too big when im feeling low.

i miss you!

run!

2008-09-14T04:49:00.000-07:00

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

something i came across-

2008-08-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

comic book covers!

and what started it off......

2008-08-03T07:41:00.001-07:00

ps- awwwwwwwwww!!!!!! :))

my gtalk conversation goes thus...

2008-08-03T07:25:00.000-07:00

anand: :D

dog lover n cat lover

or just 1 of d above?

me: animal lover

love to cuddle them, hug them, eat them

u name it

anand: lol

wouldn't have thought u'd include d latter.

u capable of killin an animal?

me: well... they taste so GOOD!

anand: always ask nonveggies dis

me: not capable of killing it

just eating it

once its dead

why're u a vegetarian?

u dunno what you're missing out on!

anand: lol

goes against my principles..

me: im a member of peta

how's that for hypocrisy?

anand:

LOL

me: see.. what other purpose do u think a chicken serves?

anand: other than living?

lol

me: yeah

other than that

pretty much nothing wouldnt u say?

they'd take over the planet if i didnt eat them

now, would u want to live in a world overrun by chickens?

anand: anythin else 2 add 2 dis fearsome list?

me : imagine.. the horrible smell

the crap all around

the feathers

the squaking

yuck

ergo

to prevent that

i eat em!

if u cant lick em. eat em

anand: shit man

really..

where do u get these brainwaves?

me: just my justifications to keep me off the guilt wagon.

**change of topic. i think he's relieved i stopped talking**

***this above conversation cannot even be excused on the grounds of being under the erm.. influence!! **

when you're wasted.

2008-07-20T07:53:00.000-07:00

atom heart mother makes sense!

*head spinning wildly*

two words.

2008-07-19T07:30:00.000-07:00

goodbyes suck!

*urggh*

laura marling

2008-07-14T07:15:00.000-07:00

she's jus - wow!
nikhil.. if you ever read this... thanks!! :)
this's is a song called ghosts that i've fallen completely in love with!

she sings-

"Lover, please do not
Fall to your knees
Its not
Like I believe in
Everlasting love

Lover, please do not
Fall to your knees
Its not
Like I ever believed in
Everlasting love

He says Im so lost,
Not at all well

Do as done and there is nothing left to be
Turned out Id been following him and he'd been following me
Do as done after it was over
We were just two lovers crying on each others shoulders"

humming...

2008-07-05T23:54:00.000-07:00

The more you see the less you know
The less you find out as you go
I knew much more then than I do now

Neon heart day-glow eyes
A city lit by fireflies
They're advertising in the skies
For people like us

art vandelay......

2008-07-05T23:20:00.000-07:00

my answer to that UUUNNHHHHHHHH.....

JOHNNY DEPP!!

enough said.

(or maybe a certain demi moore in ur case!)
:)

grumpy

2008-06-30T06:48:00.000-07:00

holiday!
i crave a good long holiday!
sigh
this sem's been going on for too darn long.
hell, this whole year has been one crazy ride. interspersed between a run of forming new liaisons and rediscovering people id long forgotten.

ok so this sounds waaaay too philosophical for a mundane person like moi! esp as the only thing of importance i've been contemplating all of last week is why the hell doesnt my blog have more readers!
maybe if i turn it into a sex journal...and fill it with my paltry knowledge on the subject.i suspect it would be of no use nonetheless.
still,it bears thinking about!

until then

back to obscurity!

after

2008-05-30T22:53:00.000-07:00

so now that i finally got to meet him, an update is imminent.

i now think- he's interesting , supremely irritating (at times) , really nice ( rarely to me! )
n has a strange obsession for carrots. :)

of course- he's still an idiot. :)

before

2008-05-19T06:38:00.001-07:00

ok.
so this post is for me to divulge what i think bout a friend's friend.

i think-
he's sweet, funny, a good guitarist n an idiot! :)

also- he has a job this summer, so i know who's paying for all my drinks. :) :)

more coming up after i get to meet him.

also-

2008-05-18T04:29:00.000-07:00

the whole of last week seems like nothing but a marathon of alternately sleeping n watching crazy chick flicks which ordinarily make me gag, with a few phone calls thrown in
so i'd like to add another one to my previous posts.

i now realize-
i need a life!
:)

i now realize

2008-05-14T08:23:00.000-07:00

1. bad haircuts can make your head resemble a slightly (ok,highly!) distorted mushroom.

2. i talk about me a lot.occasionally. :) ( courtesy hari )

3. days spent away from college are like spiritual retreats. rejuvenating.
and then you go back.

4. hang being fair, my lect jus hates me!

5. people are strange.

6. forgive. its good for you.

7. guys get periods too. thats the only explanation!

8. need to stop using pms as an excuse. and as a phrase.

9. randomness is fulfilling.

10. bleh!

2008-05-02T21:44:00.000-07:00

found this. find it funny.

The tooth fairy teaches children that they can sell body parts for money

in memory of a part of me that died.

2008-05-02T21:08:00.000-07:00

me- heyyy!!

***- hey! i love you i love you i love you!

me- (incredulous)- what???

***- i love u so much!

me- are u high on something? drunk?

***-no!

me-do you know who this is?

***- eeyea... oh shit! OH SHIT!

me- oh shit is right! ewwwww.

***- oh crap. i thought you were....

me- yeah... figured. dont our voices sound different??!!!! #$%^

we now observed a 2 minute silence. in memory of a part of me that died.tragically.

all the good things

2008-04-19T06:53:00.000-07:00

* road trips

* jhonny depp

* a friend. a drink. floyd

* 4 people. loads of rain. one room. a boardgame.

* a long kiss.

* wodehouse.

* a good, laugh-till-you-pee movie.

* dollops of lindt. mmmmmmm :)

stranger

2008-04-10T11:47:00.000-07:00

i sit here and i wait
as i wait i see you change
the shroud as it starts to fall
leaving me immersed
in a plethora of emotions
none dormant

i sit here and i wait
for a response that refuses to come
maybe a slight edge of grief
for the child like innocence lost

i sit here and i see you
i see you for the first time
a million different faces
or is that the one?

lover... who have you become??

2008-03-30T04:49:00.000-07:00

In your eyes, I start to see a starry veil, the ocean of infinity - david gray

conversations with the wise one! :)

2008-03-30T04:39:00.001-07:00

me - man! im so darn irritated. urggh.

neo - why?

me (bored, crabby, whiny ) - dunno. im pmsing as usual, i guess.
this just sucks.

neo - so what you gonna be doing tomo?

me - dunno. finish some assignments ( like hell! ), try to be good. shoot myself.

neo (laughs) - yeah. please do. i think everyone who wishes to die should be allowed to do so
. just give them a kill-yourself kit n be done with it!

me - yeah.. sounds like a really good idea! :)

neo (grinning) - there should be a little cyanide in the world for everyone. ( profound pause)

screw jimi h! im switching to the teriyaki boys!

the wise one says...

2008-03-30T04:13:00.000-07:00

plagiarized from a friend's friend's blog.

- Alcohol never solved anything. But then, neither did milk. So drink as much as you want.

my going - to - be next argument to neo's next lecture on alcoholism!

this one's too good!

2008-02-22T07:06:00.000-08:00

xkcd.com

musings...

2008-01-21T19:10:00.000-08:00

on fleeting friendship.
overcome by the vagaries of everyday existence.
revived by the usual pick-me-up.
feeling the similar constraints, and yet, maybe a time to give it another shot. atleast
this time around it might be worth it all.oh hell, it always was.

strange how being piss smashed can give you moments of clarity
that would've otherwise stayed dormant.

cheers!

2008-01-20T20:34:00.000-08:00

things you can get away with when people think you're drunk and/or crazy
* laugh hysterically while pointing at the parking meter.
* blatantly check out cute guys in the vicinity. oooo... he's soo hot!
* randomly send out a mass msg abusing everyone on your phone list.
* remove ur footwear and pretend to smack your friend with it. oh hell... really smack your friend with it. hard.
* sit on the roadside and refuse to move until hell freezes over... or atleast until someone gets you another shot.
* talk bout your crazy theories that noone wanted to listen to in the first place but have to now coz you threaten to make a scene otherwise.
* call up that ex and yell at him for hours. or what seems like hours. ( this one has some side effects.... like the nasty feeling in ur stomach the next morning when you realize what the hell you've done!)

*** all of this and more was accomplished in the span of 6-7 hours with no serious life threatening injuries or potential lawsuits.
sure.. the people around me are vowing to disown me, but thats ok. they'll come around. :)

heartbreaks and a dash of lime.

2008-01-20T20:06:00.000-08:00

why do i insist on believing its worth it all, when you and i and the rest of the world seems to know its not?

and the ig goes to....

2008-01-17T19:09:00.000-08:00

owing to utter and complete joblessness i decided to stock up on info about the ig nobels.
yeah. im a well googled( if there indeed is such a term) person.
these awards are for "scientific researches/inventions that, for obvious reasons, should not, cannot be reproduced".
im a big fan of these awards and wouldn't mind winning one myself.
for eg. year before last it went to these guys who calculated the exact velocity with which a roosting penguin shoots its poop away from her.( thats right. people out there care.) scientifically termed "calculations on avain defaecation"
amazing isn't it?

the other categories are
* biology ( i believe it went to someone who methodically smelled various kinds of frogs and tabulated the difference between each smell)
*chemistry ( some japanese chick for developing a way to extract vanillin (vanilla fragrance/ flavoring) from cow dung... so next time you eat that cake...)
*agriculture
*physics
*medicine
*peace ( this one's a beauty. it went to someone who researched the neural activity of locusts while watching star wars.... hey.. its a classic, isn't it?)

i've always felt locusts were extra terrestrials posing as earthlings.

also last year it went to the U.S.A.F's Wright Laboratory for their proposed "gay bomb," a chemical weapon to make enemy soldiers well... gay...( exactly why that would help is something i cant figure out. im guessing they'd probably take the phrase "make love not war" really seriously.)

maybe i should base my research on the linear time difference between when my dog farts and the time it takes for the fumes to spread resulting in mass evacuation and search for substitute gas masks.
i think i shall win.

all hail iota!

2008-01-14T00:48:00.000-08:00

we tend to worship what we don't understand.
we don't understand the square root of -1.
all hail iota!

ps- thanks anand.

martians are.....

2008-01-14T00:14:00.000-08:00

i watched this video (teardrop, by massive attack)
n it made me wonder about how eerily similar our our sketches of martians and the human foetus are.
which leads me to theorise that martians are unborn babies. ( yeah.. i know i have a lot of time on my hands!!)
thing is... every time i look at pictures of a foetus, it doesn't seem well.. all that human... kinda looks like another race transmuting into ours. scary and beautiful at the same time.
maybe abortion's the reason martians are extinct.

conversations with mom

2008-01-09T23:23:00.000-08:00

mom- i don't understand why she was with that boy. why get into such mishaps?

me- its her choice. you cant chastisize her for it.

mom- look where it got her. dead. in the middle of the day.
chased across the street in bright daylight.

me- it wasn't her fault that he turned out to be a phsycho killer. how was she to know?

Mom- thats my point. you never know. so why take chances?

me- are you trying to say that every person in this world's going to shoot you just because you break up with them?

mom- no. maybe not. but how can you judge who's sane and who isn't?

me - thats not the point. there's always a risk. no matter who you talk about. a jittered girl might one day shoot you thinking you're in her way!
then what do you do?

mom- the world's turning into a desperate place.you're too young to realize that.

me - doesn't mean i should run away or stop living on account of a what if!

mom- why are you defending her so much? * narrows eyes suspiciously *

me - why are you blaming her for all that happened? * grinning *

mom- no im not. and you haven't answered. are you..???

me ( smug)- i knew there had to be a point to this conversation. why didnt you come right out and ask me in the beginning?
the answer is no.you're so predictable mom. * laughing *

mom- im your mother. don't argue with me!( increases the volume on the tv)
(typical mom defence)

ha! this was one of the more mature conversations i've managed to have with my mom in the recent past.
the other day she managed to sneak a glimpse of 2 of my friends who're dating ( they weren't up to any good :) )
and has been trying to find out if im doing the same!
sneaky sneaky!
thing is, i kinda understand my mom's insane logic! ( blame it on the genes)
its a bit too similar to mine :)

ps- the incident we were referring to was the shooting of a girl in shantiniketan by her creepy ex lover cum stalker cum loony gone round the bend. ( he blew his brains out )
he allegedly stole a constable's gun from the local police station.
i thought the police was instated for our safety.
go figure!

siggghhhhhhh!

2008-01-09T22:18:00.000-08:00

things to do when you're bored silly-

* try finger painting.your bedroom wall makes a good canvas.
* don't let your doggie nap.yank its tail.
* scamper around semi naked. make sure you're not seen.
on second thought...
* call up the local pizza delivery guy. order extra everything.
send it to your neighbour. lots of love.
* listen to atom heart mother. a friend put me up to this. i suspect he doesn't like me very much.
* pretend you're superman.
(make sure you're underwear's highly visible)
* walk around asking people random questions- why does mucus clot? why am i here?
why are you here? does your breath stink?
* figure out how long you can hold your breath without longterm side-effects. (death is one of them)
* compile a "things to do when you're bored silly" lists.
*don't read this.

2008-01-06T06:37:00.000-08:00

hmmm.
first entry.
so lets talk bananas.

i hate bananas.
i mean not your average i-dont-like-them-because-they-squelch-around-in-my-mouth
dont like bananas but the god-why-does-this-alleged-fruit-exist kind of hate.
reasons why-

* they smell weird.
* their bruises look extremely gross.
* they taste funny.
* they're lumpy.
* its a gene thing.
* they have stuff peeling off them all the time. urggh.
* they rot easy.
* their texture is uncannily similar to something i'd rather not mention here.
(yeah.. you got it right!)

and you never know where to look when you eat a banana
plagiarised line
fits perfectly.